Am I Crazy?

I am writing this article at the fierce request of my colleagues. Hey, are you reading? ;)

Incidentally, I have been wondering why I end up making crazy decisions.

As I mentioned in the previous articles, I have been studying Computer Science at the University of the People for over one year. Managing weekly assignments while working full-time feels quite draining and overwhelming, even though I enjoy studying. I especially feel frustrated that I cannot study other subjects besides university, such as Kanken (Kanji exam), Russian, or law. Or that I cannot take enough time to practice the piano. I always hope that I have much, much more spare time. I certainly do. I have been dreaming about which subjects to study once I graduate from the university, even though it will be after eight or more years. But I always dream. I always hope.

Then, why did I end up enrolling in another university? Am I crazy?

Yes, the mood in the morning is so elevated that I tend to make stupid decisions on a whim. Indeed, I enrolled in the university in the morning. Now, as I write this article at night, I cannot help but question my dumb decision. Didn’t I hunger for the time to study Kanji, Russian, law, or any other subjects I would want to study on a whim? Do I forget the overwhelming, torturous, and disturbing feelings when I am not sure whether I will complete the weekly assignments?

Yes, it is not that there is no chance that I can handle two schools. Yes, this other university is founded in Japan, so lectures and textbooks are all in Japanese, my native tongue. I can read Japanese more than three times as fast as I can read English. Perhaps the necessary study time is half of that at UoPeople. Based on these facts, unfortunately, I ended up thinking, “I can handle it!”

I am certain that I am foolish.

But, see? I wrote this article, this 392-word article, in about 1 hour, whereas it had taken a few days previously. I have surely made progress in my English writing, even though there are a lot of grammar mistakes and unnatural expressions. So, it should be unquestionably possible to study at a double school simultaneously!

Yet I am certain that I am foolish, straying study-gypsy. Definitely.